Sunday, 3 May 2026

Roller coaster life

I know, I know, it's been a while since my last visit to blogland, and even longer since I last posted. I honestly had every intention to be back here sooner, but somehow life, and the curveballs it continues to throw, kept getting in the way. Lately there simply don't seem to be enough hours in a day - as if time has shrunk in the wash - and there definitely doesn't seem to be enough space in my head either.

But here I am, determined that this post shall be written, no matter what. 

However, before I plunge headlong into April (yes, I am that far behind), I would like to put things straight about Jos's chemotherapy journey. If my last post gave the impression that all is smooth sailing for him, I'm afraid nothing could be further from the truth. In fact, I think he's got all the side-effects on offer, and then some, which start kicking in when, after about a week, the cortisone-like medicine he is given during the first couple of days have stopped working their magic. Sadly, then it's hello to utter fatigue, complete loss of appetite and sudden drops in blood pressure, which make getting up on his feet quite the hazard.



We were in the thick of such an episode when the Easter weekend rolled along, so that we could kiss goodbye to doing anything involving the two of us.

Instead I had a long overdue hairdresser's appointment on Friday. Those of you who have been following me for a while might remember that Michel, my trusted hairdresser of over 30 years, was due to retire at the end of last year, which meant that I was in a bit of pickle! But fear not! I've found a worthy replacement in Mitte, who works at a salon called Hairspace, which happens to be just a couple of minutes' walk from my front door. What's more, during our first appointment we found out that I actually knew her Mum, who is the lady who always buys loads of stuff from my flea market stall!



The other thing I did was making a start with my seasonal wardrobe exchange. While I was putting away my warmest Winter things, I realized with a jolt that I still had lots of December outfits which were languishing unused in my photo folder. Now wouldn't it be an utter shame to let them go to waste?



Although it does feel a bit weird posting these when the temperature effortlessly reaches the mid-twenties!


Oh, and another thing which happened in December was this parcel of joy which was sent to me by the lovely Gisela (who blogs under Miss Magpie's Musings). She'd been having a clear out and thought I might like these brooches. And I like them very much indeed! Thank you so much, darling!


If the weather had been neither here nor there during the Easter break, the weather gods did their utmost to make up for their faux pas the next week. 

Thankfully, things were rather quiet at the office, allowing me the luxury to walk to Antwerp's small but perfectly formed Botanic Garden. At only a 10-minute walk from my office, it simply beggars belief that I hadn't been there for the better part of a year!


I was utterly charmed by this sunlit host of dog's tooth violets (Erythronium), which happen to be one of my favourite Spring flowers.


The garden, affectionately know to the people of Antwerp as Den Botaniek, is a landscaped botanical garden dating back to 1825, covers an area of slighty ​​less than one hectare and has a collection of approximately 2000 plants.  It's a joy to pass some time here whatever the season and it's a favourite place for the city's office workers and students to have their lunch breaks whenever the weather allows.



The weather even allowed the making of outfit photos when I got home that afternoon, when Jos was feeling well enough to do the honours. 

My skirt is an old wardrobe stalwart, found at Think Twice back in the mists of time, while the spotty denim blouse was a charity shop find almost exactly one year ago. The belt and boots were bought on the high street.


If I remember correctly, the carved wooden brooch was a flea market find, but I definitely know for certain where I picked up the multicoloured beaded necklace, as I picked it up from the charity shop in Poperinge while on holiday in Belgium's west country in September 2019.


With the meteorological deities still playing nicely, my next lunch break saw me venture along the Meir, Antwerp's main shopping thoroughfare. Although my ultimate destination was elsewhere, I did nip into one of the Think Twice shops which happens to be conveniently located in a side street. This red, black and white patterned skirt came home with me.


I was on my way to the Wapper, an elongated square leading off the Meir. Since 1980, the square was home to a fountain featuring the sculpture of an eagle catching a fish, by the Danish sculptor Hugo Liisberg (1898 - 1958) and dating from 1931. The concrete plinth it was standing on was designed by my Dad as part of his job as a joiner in a concrete factory. It's been known to us as Dad's fountain ever since! 



Although I was aware of the fact that the square would be redesigned at some point, it still came as a shock to see the photo of the sculpture being removed while I was scrolling through Facebook. By the time of my lunch break investigations, the plinth was gone as well. And while I suspect that the sculpture will one day find its way into the Middelheim collection, it's almost a given that the plinth will have ended up on the scrap heap :-( 



And then another Friday rolled along, which started with an early morning check-up at the dentist. As Jos didn't feel well enough to drive me all the way to the nearby town of Boom, this involved taking a bus which, basically serving the local schools, only runs early mornings and late afternoons. This meant that, after my check-up, I needed to take two buses, with a long wait in between, to get back home.

Thankfully, Jos was able to pick me up half-way, at the charity shop in one of our neighbouring villages. Obviously, it would have been rude not to have a quick browse, which yielded this gorgeous flower meadow of a blouse.


But that wasn't my only treat that day! Back at home, we had a visit from our neighbours, who'd bought me this brooch as a thank you for looking after their cats Bob, Billie and Pip while they were on a break in Valencia. 



Lately, in lieu of our customary cappuccino catch-ups, I've been meeting up with my friend Inez for drinks on Saturday afternoons. 

That Saturday, with the temperature rumoured to reach the low twenties, I'd plucked this dream of a vintage blouse from one of my flea market boxes. It always was a bit tight in the chest area, so I was surprised that it suddenly fit me like a glove. Although I've never owned scales, it was clear to me that I've lost weight. One of the perks of living in stressful times, although I would rather not be having to live through them.


The caramel coloured pleated velvet skirt was last's year charity shop find. The charity shops also supplied the stretchy belt, necklace and ring. The cat brooch is from Katshop - a local Antwerp shop catering for both cats and their servants (linkin' cause I love).

Anyway, Inez had brought with her a new photographer in the form of a tripod, so that I no longer need to depend on Jos for outfit photos.

As you can see, it has been approved by quality control (on the left in the tripod photo).




Thank you for reading. I promise to come and visit your blogs soon!



20 comments:

  1. You have described that so well, "as if time has shrunk in the wash." You are such a talented writer, even when you are describing a situation that sounds frustrating to deal with. I hate that Jos is dealing with so many side effects and that it impacted the Easter weekend. On a better note, I am glad you've found a new hairdresser after being with the same person for so long!

    I love seeing all of your beautiful outfits and I am glad that you decided to share them. Your style is incredible and I always enjoy seeing what you put together. You have the most incredible accessories!

    Oh, the travel to the dentist sounds like it was very frustrating. Transit can be equally annoying where I live, with certain buses not running on weekends or only running at rush hour times. The tripod should definitely help with the outfit photos! That was so thoughtful of Inez. I am sending you and Jos so much love.

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  2. My dear friend, I am so sorry that you and Jos are going through such a difficult time! You are in my thoughts.
    Your photos are lovely, you look radiant, as always! I love your outfits and accessories.
    I take public transit here in Montreal and thankfully our transit system is very good. However, nothing is perfect, as we all know, and there can be delays, traffic, wait times, etc.
    Your flower and cat photos are gorgeous!
    Sending you much love and warm hugs, I think of you a lot and I am happy to see your post.

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  3. So lovely to read a post from you again. I'm so sorry that Jos is experiencing all the side effects. Gosh that is so depressing, fatigue. But it is also very hard for you. I know from experience that all the attention goes to the patient, the partner needs attention too. Luckily you have lovely people around too, who send and give you the perfect gifts. And I'm glad you found a perfect replacement for your hairdresser. And what a coincidence that her mother buys the clothes you sell. Give my best to Jos and keep strong Ann!

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  4. I am sorry that Jos is having a hard time with side-effects and of course when you are a couple, you suffer to see this, too. I hope there will be some improvement and that the treatment will prove worthy of the angst.
    I was amused at your comment about the lovely December outfits, because here, after a very brief above 25°C surprise, we are back down to cool weather and the winter wardrobe its still hanging around. It will be great to stop bundling up, but at least the winter jacket is no longer needed. I'm glad you found a great replacement for your hairdresser and your hair looks splendid on the photos.
    How sad to see that lovely statue and the plinth your Dad designed, taken away, but at least you have the photo. I love the flower photos. I adore botanical gardens and seek them out in major cities. How lovely to have one so close to where you work!

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  5. Hello, dear! It is nice to see a post from you. Of course, I understand why you haven't been posting. Do not forget to take care of yourself as a caregiver. It breaks my heart that Jos is struggling. Chemo in any shape and form is never a walk in the park. I've been on chemo type medication for 17 years and while it is not regular chemo, it destroys the bone density and has other horrible side effects. Of course I'm grateful because it is keeping me alive, but these things are never easy.

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  6. I love how colourful your outfits are...and no it is not strange seeing them now. Spring weather is very changeable anyway.

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  7. It's so nice to hear from you again. I've missed your outfits and I'm happy to see the photos of them today.

    It's awful that Jos has to suffer so many side effects. All the best for his continued treatment!

    Sending you warm regards

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  8. Sorry to hear the chemo has been so hard on him. I can't imagine. Wishing him all the best.
    Lovely to see you around again.. love all your outfits as usual.

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  9. Such a joyful, colourful and uplifting post despite what is happening with Jos. I hope he feels a bit better soon it must be so exhausting for both of you. And I do hope your Dad's plinth returns and is not consigned to the scrap heap. Sending love.

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  10. Lovely to hear from you. Wishing Jos the best. Mx

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  11. Sending you and Jos lots of love and positive wishes. Those botanical gardens look beautiful. Salve for the soul. Xxx

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  12. I glad that you have managed to get out a bit for a change of scene. Really hope Jos starts to feel a little better soon. Love to.you.bothx

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  13. Don't worry about visiting my blog sweetheart...I know how stressed you must be! I'll always be here... Praying for Jos to get better, soon and for you and little Bess! Love all the outfits!
    hugs
    Donna

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  14. There are different times in life, so you don’t have to promise anything. I think your readers will understand that you are living a stressfull life these days. Of course, your mind is occupied. Your winter outfits look great. It hasn’t been long since we all wore warm clothes. All the best to Jos. Chemotherapie takes its tolls. All the best to him and you! xxx Regula

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  15. First of all, I think many readers will simply be glad to see you back, even if life clearly has not been making things easy lately. Your title fits perfectly because this post really does move between steep drops, unexpected turns, brief moments of sunshine, and the exhausting effort of just holding on through it all.

    Thank you as well for speaking honestly about what chemotherapy actually looks like in daily life. People often talk about treatment in hopeful or clinical terms, but the reality of fatigue, dizziness, appetite loss, and the emotional toll on both patient and partner can easily remain invisible from the outside. Your description makes clear that this is not a smooth journey, and I imagine many readers dealing with similar situations will feel less alone because of your honesty.

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  16. Oh no, I do hope Jos starts to feel better soon, Chemo seems to affect everyone so differently, I'm so sorry that it's making him feel so rotten.
    I do hope Dad's Fountain ends up in Middelheim so you can visit it, what a beautiful sculpture, its a crying shame that its been moved.
    On a brighter note you've done so well to find Mitte, she's continuing on in Michel's footsteps as your hair is looking fabulous.
    Giselle's brooches have definitey gone to the right home.
    I like how Bess is supervising your endeavours with the tripod and timer. They're a game changer, aren't they? After 16 years as official blog photographer, Jon's services are no longer needed now I've invested in one.
    As always despite everything going on in your life, your outfits are fantastic, a masterclass in print and colour coordination.
    Sending you lots of love. xxx

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  17. Sending so much love to you and Jos, Ann! Life is change, whether it's dealing with health, your dad's plinth being taken away (I'd like to think one of the workers said, "Hey, could I have this instead of tossing it?" and it's sitting in his garden), dropping weight or finding a treasure in the shops! I loved seeing the pic of Bess overseeing your pictures, but even more, what a stunning run of gorgeous outfits, my dear. You are an artist!

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  18. Hello, Ann. I'm an occasional reader and commenter. I am sending my warmest wishes for Jos's comfort and fortitude, and yours too, as he goes through his demanding chemotherapy treatments.

    I was intrigued and saddened by the knowledge that the sculpture was moved from its location and that the fate of the plinth is unknown. If the plinth has not been disposed of yet, perhaps you might be able to obtain it for your own garden at little or no cost. It would just take a few minutes of your time to make an inquiry.

    I took it upon myself to use an AI tool to get advice on how you might inquire about the whereabouts of the plinth, and this is what I found out. I'm copying and pasting the information here, should you wish to pursue this. The copied and pasted portion will start and end with an asterisk....

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    "The best starting point is probably the Antwerp public-art office that manages sculptures in the city. The “Fishing Eagle” appears to fall under the Antwerp Public Art Collection administered through the Middelheim Museum.

    Here are the most relevant contacts for the blogger to investigate the fate of the plinth:

    Middelheim Museum
    Public-art collection manager for Antwerp.
    Phone: +32 3 288 33 60
    Email: middelheimmuseum@antwerpen.be

    Website: Middelheim Museum

    Ask specifically for:
    “Kunst in de Stad” / Antwerp Public Art Collection
    records relating to Hugo Liisberg’s “Fishing Eagle”
    whether the plinth was catalogued, stored, or demolished.

    Antwerp City Hall
    This is the city administration likely responsible for Wapper redevelopment permits and demolition logistics.
    Phone: +32 3 221 13 33
    Website: City of Antwerp

    Useful departments to ask for:
    Public works / openbare werken
    heritage / erfgoed
    redevelopment files for the Wapper.

    Useful additional research links:

    Antwerp Public Art Collection page
    — explains that the Middelheim Museum manages Antwerp’s urban sculpture collection.
    Middelheim “Art in Public Spaces” page
    — background on the city’s public-art program.

    A very targeted question for them would be:

    “Was the concrete plinth under Hugo Liisberg’s Fishing Eagle considered part of the artwork, and if not, what happened to it during the Wapper redevelopment?”

    Because the blogger says her father designed the plinth at a concrete factory, there’s a chance the city never formally accessioned it as an artwork element. In that case, records may exist only in redevelopment or contractor paperwork rather than museum archives."

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    In America, we have an expression to describe the feeling of instability caused by bad news or unwelcome changes. We say that it feels like "having the rug pulled out from under you." Perhaps it's just a coincidence, but I can't help but feel that it's very strange that the removal of the sculpture and the plinth coincides with Jos's cancer treatment. In essence, it's like two very destabilizing experiences of having the rug pulled out from under you. So I would gently suggest that you might feel a wee bit better if you make some inquiries about the plinth. Even if they are not fruitful, you might experience a sense of empowerment because you are still honoring the memory of your father just by contacting the institutions that have had a role in the erection or removal of the sculpture and the plinth that has held it up all these years. After all, Jos and your father are two very important men in your life.

    Even if you chose not to inquire about the plinth, I think you are very brave and insightful for recording your experiences here on your blog. May you and your beloved husband experience good luck, comfort, nourishment, and strength.

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  19. Nobody knows better than me how unpredictable and difficult medical treatment can be. You hope and expect one thing, then something else hits you. Continued best wishes to you two on that front.

    I'm so happy to see you blogging like this again. It's good for your emotional health and Jos needs you strong and happy. Keep creating colorful outfits (love the new blouse) and sharing them with us.

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  20. Lovely to read your blog post and see your fab outfits (love those December ones, which are really colourful and inspiring!). I have to consider acquiring a tripod myself!.
    Lovely outfits, dear Anne, and so lovely brooches too!. So glad your collection keeps growing! ;D
    Totally agree with previous comments, Chemo can be so damn difficult and unpredictable. So all we can do is send you our best wishes and lots of (virtual) hugs!
    (Don't worry about catching up with our blogs!, we totally understand that sometimes Real Life is difficult!)
    besos

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